Last week I felt like I was standing on the edge of a precipice. Directionless. I wondered how did I get so distracted...so far off track. I allowed these distraction to take control and move in a direction that I knew wasn't good for me. I knew this. I even asked myself while I was stuffing numerous hot tamales in my mouth, "What on earth are you doing to yourself?" I used to ask myself this questions when I would binge. I'd never answer the question though because I don't think I knew the answer to be quite honest.
The difference this time around was that I stopped it. I stopped the behavior. I thought about why I was doing it. I also thought about if the result of eating all that candy made me feel better. It didn't. It never made me feel better. Back then, it just made me feel numb, which was better than feeling hopeless. This time around, it just made me feel sick. That's way better than numb, and I stopped it.
This week, I committed to eating better. I got rid of gluten - so that meant no wheat products - and my hip pain disappeared by Saturday. I took a week off from running and concentrated on tough strength workouts. Tuesday, I created my own WOD (Workout of the Day). After warm-up, I did four rounds of:
15 thrusters with 30 pounds (15 lb each hand)
20 plank with press (15 lb each hand)
30 box jumps
I cooled off with 5 minutes of rowing.
Thursday was another personal training day. She took pity on me and we only worked on strength training - deadlifts and bench presses. Can I just say how badass I felt when I deadlifted a personal best 215 POUNDS! 215 POUNDS! I haven't bench pressed in years and I got up to 75 pounds. What an amazing accomplishment. I felt fantastic. My thighs were burning later that night, and I swear I passed out by 8:30
I finished the week up with a 8 mile run yesterday. I really should say a 8 mile walk. I walked/ran for the first 4, and I fast walked for the last 4. The rain/snow caught me so it was pretty nasty that last mile or so. I wasn't happy with it at all, but I'm just glad I did it. I'm realizing that running isn't all it's cracked up to be. I don't like how beat up I feel after running hard for a long distance. So, I'm pretty sure I'm hanging up my long distance running shoes after this year. It will be nice to say, "I did it," when I cross the finish line at the Cleveland Half Marathon on May 19th. I'll get a sticker/magnet for my car and look at it with pride... I don't want to suffer knee, hip and back issues. I need to keep those strong for all the weight I'll be lifting in the future. I'm definitely feeling Stronger.
I'm glad I was able to get myself back on track this week. Good health and fitness really begins in the kitchen. Eat well, sleep well, and work it out. We all have roadblocks that can stop us if we let them. I feel a true test of your fortitude is based on how you handle them. I'm proud of what I did this week. I'll make sure it continues.
|I totally earned wearing this shirt this week. |
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