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Hello everyone! I'm heading into week 16... Wow! I'm still trying to wrap my head around how quickly the time is passing. When I was in the pre-surgical program, I was grateful for the time I had to prepare myself for life after surgery. Now that I'm in the thick of it, I'm happy with my progress so far. Matilda and I are getting along great. Sure, she makes weird noises often, but I appreciate every noise, every twitch, every warning. I listen to her when she's telling me she's had enough or she doesn't like something... And especially when she loves something. It's hard to stop eating when you're enjoying your food, but I do. I do stop. I think that's what make me so content. I feel like I am doing well managing my portions and impulses.

This past week, I had another NSV or Non-scale Victory. On Friday, I checked in with my Primary Doctor for a blood pressure check. My blood pressure has been on the low side, and I told him that I've been having dizzy spells when moving. He took me off one of my blood pressure meds for two weeks. I am to monitor my blood pressure and report back. So far, my blood pressure is still great. I'm talking only one medication for it. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that I will be able to get rid of both of them. The more weight I lose, the more hopeful I am I can get rid of another medication.

How's the gym going? Good! I ran for 10 minutes straight this past Friday, and today I walked/ran in 5 minute intervals. Practice makes perfect. My goal is to run a mile continuously by the end of the year. I'll update you on New Year's Day.

So, I've been thinking a lot about the holidays approaching. I have a lot of parties and get togethers. Pot lucks and such. My goodness! How will I handle it? Or the questions?

Sushi? Maybe without the rice...

The questions don't bother me. I'll tell you exactly why I'm eating so little or why I don't want a drink. I've never hidden anything about what I'm going through. However, if anyone has the nerve to say, "Oh, you did it the easy way," I'm giving you a warning.

I belong to a couple bariatric groups where we can communicate and get some help and support from others who have already gone through the process. It is amazing the lack of support many of us receive from our family and friends. Loved ones that are hoping we fail and don't get the surgery. Friends who try to sabotage and straight up throw shade. I can say that I haven't encountered anything like this...yet. I did have a family member say she didn't understand why I couldn't lose weight "the normal way" and hopes I don't gain it back. Hell, I pray everyday I don't gain my weight back. That's why I'm working so hard now.

Don't even try to ruin my
good vibe. You gonna
get hurt.
Comments like that don't bother me. However, if anyone comes at me with "The easy way" convo, they may get their feelings hurt. Why? Because I'm working my ass off. Are you getting up with me at 4:30 am to go to the gym? Are you lifting up heavy stuff? Are you squatting 120 lbs and deadlifting 140? Are you leg pressing 190? What's easy about all of that stuff? What's easy about running nonstop for 10 minutes when you weigh over 200 pounds?  Come at me if you think this shit is easy.

I love that it's not easy. It's difficult. It's challenging. It's hella frustrating. But it's so rewarding. I found my winter sweaters that I haven't worn in 4 years, and I'm wearing them. I finally wore a pair of boots this weekend that I've had for years, but I was never able to zip them up be
cause my feet were too fat and swollen...and they were comfortable! I have energy and drive. Yeah, I can't eat sushi yet, but it's all good. Sure, Matilda doesn't like cake and pie, but that's okay. This isn't easy. It's not a path many can take. But, the rewards are so fulfilling because I'm getting my life back.

So, if you want to tell me how easy I have it. Don't bother. I'm not listening.

Weight Loss Update
HW: 360
SW: 278
CW: 228 (50 pounds post op!)
GW: Kiss it!



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